Censoring My Blog to Death
Next month is my one year blogiversary. I can’t believe all the places my blog has gone in the past 11 months, places I never dreamed it would go when I started. However, I can’t help but think of all the places it hasn’t quite yet reached. Once you are submerged in this blogging society, you get an up close look at the potential your blog can have.
Needless to say, I am not reaching my potential…yes this is coming on the heels of yesterday’s PR update…
When I first started this blog, I knew that nobody was reading it. I could write it honestly. I didn’t worry about how people interpreted my words or how they saw me after they did. As my blog grew, I started getting feedback from friends and family members. They enjoyed my writing and only had positive things to say, which was very nice to hear. It’s always nice to be loved!
But then I started having a very hard time finding something to write about…
It’s not that I am at a loss for ideas. My head is constantly swirling with sarcastic commentary, my kids often leave me speechless but always provide great writing material and I have a wonderfully dynamic relationship with my husband that frequently produces a ranting monologue. The problem is…now everyone is reading it! *gasp* Readers are what every writer dreams of but I find myself censoring myself away.
These days I am wondering “how will so and so interpret this?” “Will so and so think of me differently?” This has left me with a long list of drafts, started but never finished. At the end of the month, I toss more drafts than I actually posted.
So here is my vow. I will end my days of censoring! (Imagine some very triumphant music here) My blog is my baby and I want to do everything I can to help it grow and live up to it’s full potential.
How about other bloggers? How do you deal with censoring when you have family and personal friends who read your work? I’d love your feedback!